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Hi There! My name is Lara Rios and...

YOU ARE WELCOME TO JOIN ME IN THIS EXCITING JOURNEY INTO BECOMING A WEDDING PHOTOGRAPHER! 

The year 2009 was amazing in so many ways. I've got married to my awesome and hot boyfriend of 6 years Edward Rios, AKA Eduardo. During the planning of my wedding (I'll soon post pictures) I felt in love again... with the magical world of WEDDING PHOTOGRAPHY. Ok I have to admit... I have always been obsessed with weddings, I'm in love with love (cheese I know) and I'm fascinated by photography! So... Voila, the Perfect Match! And then I realized there's nothing else in this world I rather do than becoming a wedding photographer, this is my calling and now you can follow my trip through this blog.

Well, besides being a wife and a mother (yes, I have a 9-year old FANTASTIC boy called Carlitos) I am also a graphic and website designer (Check my Portfolio here) with over 15 years of experience - I graduated very young :) - and I'm currently working full time as the art director of an advertising firm in Fort Lauderdale, Florida called Gerbino & Associates.

This is a huge turn I'm taking in my career. I'm sure there will be some "minor" challenges because I have no camera :( no technical education and zero experience. But I have a few huge advantages in my favor: AN UNSHAKEABLE FAITH IN GOD that is guiding my steps, and a clear determination to make it happen. All of a sudden, doors are opening and a flow of opportunities are presenting themselves to me. I believe this is the right time and I'm going to follow my dreams. So keep coming back and I'll try to make it fun and entertaining. My goal is to give you a visual glimpse of my little funky world, my learning process and my very eclectic experiences. Feel free to leave comments or email me at  lara@lararios.com if you have any questions or feedback! 

With Love, LARA


 

…And They All Cried!

I DID TOO BUT NOBODY SAW ME, JIJIJI

Hear me out! As you all know I’ve been taking pictures like crazy lately and most of them at my closest friends. A couple of weeks ago I had a shoot with my friend Andreina, her husband Jimmy and her daughter Isabella (Ohh! and the pea in the pot too). Since I’ve been so busy taking pictures I haven’t really had the time to edit or simply put them in a CD and give them away to my friends. Today I was going to see Andreina so I decided to not only give her their pictures but to prepare a little slideshow with all of them. I wanted to give them a little present. Let me tell you something, these guys are very special, they’re great friends, they care about people, they help our community and church and they have a beautiful family. What you’ll see in the slideshow is how they really are – loving and caring! So we had a Family series today with our Pastor which she holds at her house. I brought my laptop and very casually we played it in the kitchen. So what’s my surprise? Not three seconds into the slideshow and everybody’s crying. I’m toughing it out to hold my tears because I know this brings a lot of emotions to everyone. The photographer is not supposed to be crying right? After all I already did while I was doing the animation while sitting at Starbucks! Nobody was there ok? The reason I’m explaining all this is because I FELT GREAT! Not because I made them cried, hahaha, that wasn’t my intentions at all, but because this was the reason I decided to become a photographer. To have a passion that can bring happiness and strong emotions like this is priceless. This is meaningful to me, but not only to me, but to other people too, and that’s freaking awesome! I’ve known this wonderful family from day one, they’ve created this love and unity, and I know that to them what you’ll see it’s really a “Dream Come True” I LOVE YOU GUYS and thanks for the honor of being my friends!

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D - such a beautiful warm feeling to see so much love and it was all captured by your camera!

Michele - OMG! i'm crying too and i'm @ the office! (not that that is odd or anything!) Que belleza...no solo las fotos pero la familia, el amor que ve entre Andi y Jimmy (yes...since day one!) and the honor of having them in our lives...(and now you too LAra ...I am HONORED!)Un beso!

Andreina - Larita! what beautiful words! you have made me cry once again...I so appreciate that you took the time to do something so special for us, so heartfelt! this is probably one of the most beautiful gifts I have ever received. It was also very special that I got to share it with my dearest friends!! Love you girl! and I know this is just the beginning of an outstanding journey! You are so talented, so driven, such an inspiration! big hug!!! A

Marian&Ado - Ay Larita!!! Que bellas todas tus fotos...me hiciste llorar con este video :) Te juro que parece que tuvieras aniosssssss tomando fotos profesionales. Tienes un ojo! Todos nuestros mejores deseos. Yo siento que muchas cosas bellas vienen para ti, asi que para adelante! Ya estamos listos para nuestras fotos ;) Que emocion...can't wait! Te mandamos un abrazoteee. Marian y Ado

Three Models to Die for in Gorgeous Ines Di Santo Gowns

As I mentioned in my previous post I’d be sharing some of the pictures I took when I participated last week at the PortfolioPlusWorkshop with Ray Santana and Kenny Kim. The experience of spending a day with this incredibly talented group of photographers was uncompared to anything else I’ve ever done. I learned so much! I went in there knowing that I wanted to become a wedding photographer and I left 100% convinced that there’s nothing else in this world I rather do. I’m extremely grateful for the assistance I received by the instructors Ray and Kenny and by their guest speakers Jim Garner and Dave Cross.

Now let me tell you, when you have twenty-something photographers ready to shoot at three gorgeous models all at the same time is like when you go to the park to see the ducks and throw a little piece of bread to the floor, hahaha… It was exciting and although the “organized chaos” we all had the opportunity to receive one-on-one instruction and also the time to direct the models as we wished. I was a little shy about the latest because I was already a mess just trying to figure out my exposure, lighting, Kelvin temperature, etc. Anyway, I SIMPLY LOVED IT. I wish I could have one of this shootings every weekend, the excitement and the energy of the group was contagious and we were all having fun, joking around in a relaxed environment. The day was gorgeous and the weather was perfect. What else can a girl ask for. Take a look at the pictures below, I hope you like them, I’m pretty satisfied considering my level and non-existent-experience, Oh! and don’t forget that this was my day number six with a proffessional camera… So be honest but kind please, don’t break my heart ;)

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MEET THE SPECTACULAR AND SEXY BARBIE!

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ray santana - Great job so proud of you... Goodtimes coming

Regina White - These are wonderful. Love em all. Beautiful women and you captured them so fabulously.

Sharon Snow - Lara, Seriously?!? Never shot before?!? Your images are stunning! Girl, I think you have major talent and need to work more on your confidence in yourself and your ability. You have some gorgeous shots here, and should be very, VERY proud of yourself!! Your phone will be ringing before you even get a camera if you keep putting up images like these! You GO!

Kenny Kim - Wow! Are you sure you never shot a wedding before? These are amazing. So proud of you Lara!

Rosalía - La del vestido volando....me mata!!!!! Qué fotos más bellas!!!! Chama, haz una colecta para comprar la cámara y para hacerte unas tarjetas y empezar a repartirlas....jajajajaja! Si a partir de ahora, salgo mal en una foto tuya...es PORQUE ME ESTAS SACANDO MAL A PROPOSITO.....jajajjajaa! Besotes!

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PORTFOLIO+WORKSHOP AT THE LEGENDARY BILTMORE HOTEL IN MIAMI

BY: RAY SANTANA & KENNY KIM - GUEST SPEAKERS: JIM GARNER & DAVE CROSS

IT WAS PERFECTION! On January 27th I went to the legendary Hotel Bitmore of Coral Gables in Miami to meet the most incredible group of photographers at the PortfolioPlusWorkshop. Let me tell you, I couldn’t finish telling you only great things about this awesome experience, seriously, IT BLEW MY MIND AWAY. All this is completely new to me and the only thing I can think about  now is “how come I didn’t discover the world of photography 10 years ago?” Well, I know God works in mysterious ways and I guess this is my time and not 10 years ago… Anyway, going back to the workshop, all those guys that you see in the pictures below are photographers – not wanna be photographers like me but the real deal. So I felt kind of bad asking a ton of beginner’s questions – or like I would say: stupid questions, but I had to!!! I didn’t mean to monopolize the workshop for myself but I don’t get opportunities like this very often and there’s so much I need to learn. Actually the more I learn the more I realize that I know NOTHING! So regarding my non-stop-asking-stupid-questions at the workshop, let me tell you that these guys (Ray, Kenny, Jim & Dave) went ABOVE & BEYOND to answer all of them. They are the coolest, funniest, nicest and more down to earth people in this world. Some of you might know that these dudes are like up there, very successful photographers yet they are so approachable, non-egostistic kind of people. I felt right at home. Besides that, I’ve got the opportunity to meet some of the photographers attendees and the same thing, they are very nice people. I wish we all stay in touch. Gosh! where have I been all my life? Sitting behind a freaking computer designing corporate brochures and websites, agh… I still like graphic design but photography is my cup of tea. Ice green tea from Starbucks that is ;)

The workshop was packed with priceless information. The experience of the shoot was a lot of fun. The instructors were right there teaching, showing and even lending their bad-a.. lenses. Of course everyone is at a different level, I am at a “baby-in-diapers” level and the following is what got stuck in my mind:

• Exposure is everything: This is what Ray said. “Exposure? Shoot! where’s the manual?” (That’s what I thought when he mentioned that) I shouldn’t say this but I’m not even sure if I know where or how to control the exposure in the camera, hahaha, pathetic I know. I’m actually starting to understand it though.

• Gear, Gear, Gear: Don’t even get me started with this because I could cry! I NEED A CAMERAAAAAA NOW, wuahhhh… I actually had to return my rental on Thursday and I swear I felt like if I was sending my son to college – like that, ok? Ray showed off all his gear and I’m in the process of finding out what his address is to pay him a visit when nobody is home!!!

• Kelvin Temperature: When Ray said Kelvin I thought Calvin Klein. What in the world is Kelvin temperature? Those were my questions during the class. I just can imagine what the other photographers were thinking: Who the hell let this woman get in here? Hahaha… OMG, how embarrassing! Well, at least I know now who that Kelvin is and that he can be very Hot and Cold!

• Tell a Story: Ok. This guy, Jim Garner was really impressive. His method of photography is telling a story of the wedding day but in the most creative and fun way. His albums and photography were GORGEOUS. I can only suggest you check it out in his website because it’s out of this world. I think his photography style of storytelling is the future of wedding photography.

• DO NOT TILT YOUR PICTURES: This made me crack up really bad. I guess because I’m learning photography and I have no technique whatsoever, I usually tilt my pictures a lot. I guess is a way to make them look “interesting” when in reality is sometimes disturbing. Thank God Kenny Kim saw me during the shoot and asked me: “Why are you tilting your camera so much?” hahaha… well, then we all had an entire conversation on tilting images. Only tilt in some cases like when you need something to fit in the picture. So no more tilting for me. They are so right, how embarrassing, tilted images make me dizzy now.

• Smart Objects: The photoshop guru, Dave Cross, shared some incredible tips on how to handle files. One thing I didn’t even know it existed was the “Smart Objects” option. It is so cool to preserve the original file while you edit and giving you the opportunity to go back to an edited picture and adjust the settings. Very cool, I suggest you check it out.

Ok, there was a lot more than this but that’s what comes to my mind right now. I decided that (some day) after I buy my camera I’m going to invest a lot of money in these kind of workshops. Really, it’s the best way to learn, to connect with other photographers in the industry and to be up-to-date with what’s going on in the world of photography. Now enjoy some pictures of that glorious day, courtesy of Kenny Nakai.

TAKE A LOOK AT THE PICTURES I TOOK HERE AND LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK – BE NICE PLEASE, I’M A PHOTOGRAPHY APPRENTICE! I don’t think they are that bad although the “exposure” wasn’t so good. Lots of editing, hahaha. It helped that the models were super gorgeous and the gowns by Ines Di Santo STUNNING. Stay tunned!

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The masters: Jim Garner, Ray Rantana, Dave Cross & Kenny Kim

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The beautiful Thalita Getting ready for the shoot

Thanks to Melissa Johnstone with Sugar & Soul for this great picture!

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In the work… I crawled all the floors at the Biltmore Hotel!
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I wasn't aware that Kenny was proposing that afternoon!

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Allison - Great pics, Lara!! Keep shooting, you're doing a fabulous job!!

Gavin Wade - Yay! So awesome to meet you and see your work Lara! Already you are rocking with your camera. I wish I started out with your talent! Keep up the great work! Hopefully see you soon!!

Kenny Kim - What an awesome recap Lara! I'm so glad you came to the workshop and got so much out of it! I'll be following your career!

Rosalía - Chama, qué super experiencia!!! Me encanta! Las fotos se ven super increíbles. Bueno, ya sabes... a comprar cámara, a tomar muchas fotos y a inscribirse en todos los workshops que puedas! Un besote enorme♥

Karen: Une jolie femme

My beautiful French friend Karen and I took a vintage trip to Sunrise Blvd where I found this old abandoned train in the middle of the city. And since today I had to return the rental camera :( we had exactly 45 minutes to finish this shoot. It was a little CRAZY!!! I was sweating and rushing like a mad woman – not that I’m not usually like that already. Sadly this was my last shoot until I rent the camera again in February. I still have a lot of pictures to upload but because yesterday I had the Portfolio+Workshop all day, today I’m exhausted so this post is a short one and to the point.  Tomorrow I need to be inspired to write about my experience with this INCREDIBLE group of photographers!  That’s going to be a good one but now I’m going to sleep because I don’t even know what I’m writing anymore… Oh! by the way, isn’t she gorgeous?

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Regina White - Very very nostalgic. Love em. So fun and bright.

ashleigh - wow lara!!! i'm impressed!!! these are stunning!!! you go girl ;)

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Kirk - Une telle beauté ! Karen est étonnante - elle est futée, douée, gracieuse et élégante, et absolument belle.

Photo shoot Marathon Sneak Peek

WOW! MY FIRST PHOTO SHOOT EVER WITH REAL PEOPLE AND A REAL CAMERA!

Today I’m extremely happy and exhausted! I’ve been taking pictures non-stop since Friday afternoon. In case you don’t know I rented a Canon EOS 5D Mark II and I received it on Thursday. I had scheduled my first photo session for Friday at noon right after work and when I grabbed the camera I swear I had a panic attack. There were like two million abbreviations around the body of my new rental and little tiny buttons that I still don’t know what the hell they’re for. My husband was cracking up looking at me almost in tears thinking of the people I already had committed to and not knowing if I was going to be able to deliver a good job. I still don’t know if I did, hahaha. Anyway, I took the manual and started reading: focus, aperture, shutter speed, f-stop, and blah, blah, blah. What the heck? Well, the aperture and shutter speed I’ve kind of got but I’m seriously thinking about taking some classes besides my coming workshops because this is something else, no really! My models were all friends of mine and I swear they rocked my world up side down. Seriously? Nobody complaint at all about my incompetency and my slow speed. And they all look so GORGEOUS in the pictures, I swear I can’t stop looking at them. Danielle, Amalia, Lina, Jaime Andres, Marjorie, Lucia, Andreina, Jimmy and the beautiful Isabella: THANK YOU SO MUCH. I can’t tell you enough how grateful I am to all of you and how much this helped me to learn and practice. After this experience I decided that definitely there’s nothing else in this world I rather do or be than a lifestyle and wedding photographer. It was so much fun and now that I see the pictures I feel so incredibly happy. For those of you with experience in this photography world please BE NICE :) this was my first photo shoot EVER, I know now that grabbing a professional camera it’s not all it takes to take great pictures but hey I’m trying. I know they are not all that and I can only promise to keep trying my best, keep learning from every single session and do better every time. I do like them though and I think my friends are so beautiful and so real… I LOVE YOU GUYS! By the way, this is just a sneak peek, I’m planning to upload one post per each session I had so you can see more…

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MEET DANIELLE AND HER DAUGHTER AMALIA, THE FASTEST GIRL ON EARTH!

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Regina White - Yeah I can't believe this is your first time shooting. I just stummbled onto your blog and would have never guessed.

-brittany- - yay Lara! Awesome! Can't believe this was your first ever photo session(s)!

Jennifer Brotchie - These are fantastic! Great job!

Monica Karroum - CONGRATULATIONS LARA!!!! Love ALL the Pics!!! I want mine soon!!! ;) Big Kiss!!

The Birthday Present Every Husband (or Boyfriend) Wants!

TRUST ME ON THIS – HE WANTS IT!

A Boudoir session can be the most fun and playful photo shoot ever. My gorgeous (to say the least) Colombian friend wanted to surprise her husband with a very classy and tastefully designed Boudoir book for his birthday. We prepared my room with candles, red satin sheets and some cool music. I brought her a glass of wine to unwind, maybe two or three? and we had a blast. I thought this kind of pictures would look better in B&W, they’re more dramatic!!! We shot a ton more but those are for his eyes only. Here’s a few that she let me share in my blog :) I think they all look so incredible and her eyes are stunning. After the shoot we spent a couple of hours designing the book which we sent out to print at Blurb.com. I have scheduled two more Boudoir sessions in the next couple of months. One of them is for a good friend of mine who’s getting married and also wants to surprise her husband-to-be with a beautiful book for their first night as a married couple. HOW ROMANTIC IS THAT? I think I want to get married again (with my same sweetheart of course) hahaha. I hope you like them!!!

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Walking the Streets of Miami in a Wedding Gown!

WE’VE GOT LOTS OF ATTENTION, HAHAHA

My very good friend Lina got married in a very small ceremony and she didn’t have a photographer. So when she learned that I wanted to become a wedding photographer she was so thrilled knowing that at least she would have some pictures after the wedding. We went to the spectacular Design Distric of Miami Beach and walked the streets up and down. There was something cool and exciting in every corner. After her husband saw her pictures he finally agreed to have some taken of the two, so that one is hopefully coming before the end of the century! She’s so photogenic it’s not even funny!!! 100% Trooper… You’ve got to love her!

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Marjorie Rocked an Oscar Carballo’s Wedding Gown

IN COWBOY BOOTS SHE RAN, JUMPED AND CRAWLED, SHE WAS A REAL TROOPER!

Ok that dress my friend Marjorie is wearing was the dress I wore in 1998 when I married my first husband and the father of my son. I wasn’t going to mention this “tiny-little” detail but I actually think it’s hilarious. So since I’m shooting anything wearing white I thought “Why the heck not?” Right? Who cares – definitely not my ex, hahaha. She looked great and the dress still rocks! It has like a little filling on the butt to make it look like Marie Antoinette, I guess I was into that back then :) This was my second photo shoot after receiving the camera, I think they’re good considering my in-expertise… I hope you like them – she’s really beautiful!

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One Canon EOS Mark II, Seven Days, Six Photo Shoots Booked! Ouch.

I GUESS THAT ONLY LEAVES ONE DAY FOR ME TO LEARN HOW TO USE THE CAMERA – HOLLY CRAP!!!

Ok, so you need to understand I’ve been crying for a camera for months. Finally I decided to go to LensRental.com and order a Canon EOS 5D Mark II, a 50mm f/1.2, a 70-200mm f/2.8L and a 24-70mm f/2.8L. Do I know what these lenses are for? No clue. Do I even know how to turn on the camera? Nope. I don’t even know how to change one lens for another. Ahh… but who cares I contacted all of my girlfriends and I booked 6 photo shoots, hahaha (that was a nervous laugh big time!) I’m so freaking excited, my mind is going a thousand miles a second and I have no idea how the heck I’m going to pull this off. My guess is that this and next week I’m going to be very happy and probably very frustrated too (nervous laugh again) I’m receiving the camera tomorrow Thursday and Friday I have my first session. I just hope the pictures won’t suck. And I also hope that my models won’t kill me :) and come with a LOT of patience, hahaha, thank God they’re all my good friends.

Next week Wednesday I have another very exciting event: The Portfolio+Workshop at the Biltmore Hotel in Coral Gables (Miami) with the super & duper cool Kenny Kim and Ray Santana. Today Ray received one of the three cool dresses by Ines Di Santo that we’re going to be shooting at the workshop – How exciting is that? BY THE WAY, THERE ARE STILL TWO SEATS AVAILABLE, YOU SHOULD COME TOO! Anyway, like Ray Santana always says “GOODTIMES” Not that I personally know him but I’ve read it!

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Last but definitely not least, I want to thank all of my friends and all the bloggers that I don’t even know for all the support and nice words from my previous post. I even received separate emails and facebook messages about it. I have no words to describe how grateful I am and how all of you gave me hope and encouragement when I most needed it. Thank you, I love you all and I promise you now that no matter how horrible my pictures look next week I WILL NOT GIVE UP!

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Tracy Laulhere - Hi Lara, I'm looking forward to meeting you at the workshop next month and talking about your journey so far. I'm just beginning and understand the struggles and worries. I haven't even set up a blog yet! I think you're off to a wonderful start -- congratulations! Take care, Tracy

Leonardo Moran - Lara no te olvides de baterias extras para la camara y flash..........

Sara Bell - Hopefully you won't want to kill any of your models either :-) big kisses

Jennifer Brotchie - Have fun practicing!! It's the only way to learn!

I was seriously considering giving up

BUT I’M STILL HERE…

I am such a mess, I wonder if the rest of the world is like me or I’m the only crazy one. I don’t know why I have this idea in my mind that all the women I know are very clever and collected and have their stuff together except me. I feel I’m such an emotional wreck most of the time that I don’t really know how I’ve gone so far. I debated blogging about this or not but I decided to finally open up my heart to my beloved blogger readers, after all it’s not like a have three million people reading it. My readers are my family and closest friends so it’s ok hahaha. I haven’t written anything since last Monday because besides being sick for a few days I was so totally depressed and beat down to hopelessness. It seems to me that my dreams of becoming a photographer are farther and farther away from me. Despite how much I work for it it’s like I can’t get any closer. My finances are a mess just like me and every time I get to save a couple of bucks to buy my camera another unexpected out of the blue expense comes my way and I have to freaking spend it all. So as today I have zero money saved to buy my camera and my dreams feel like fading in the distance. Last week I thought about giving up completely, I was totally defeated. Then the earthquake in Haiti made me feel even worst. I spent a horrible weekend feeling sorry for myself and I swear I’m not even PMSing but I went to the extreme I even doubted God’s existence. HORRIBLE! I wonder if successful people ever feel this way? Do you ever feel like giving up? How do you get up, pick up the pieces and keep going? I just wonder…

Anyway, I don’t know what went wrong with me, probably some kind of mental short circuit, but Monday came and I turned on my computer this morning and suddenly I said to myself: “I can’t give up. That’s not me. I didn’t dream all this to give it up, I’m going to keep going”. So the quote for this week is a colorful one to sheer me up! 

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Regina White - Okay so I know we don't know one another nor do we know eachother's stories on life. But I do know one thing I have thought these same thoughts then, now and always. I've been in the buisness only a year and a half and I tell you I have thought about quiting more times than I can count. But you meet other photographers and they keep you in line. You want to be a little more like them but yourself. You meet people who almost become your new best friend and anytime you wanna text, chat via e-mail or FB they are there. You can go through ups and downs. But you will stay up. I shot with a 40D for a year and a half and now bought a Canon 5D. I would love the mark DII but it ain't happenin with me right now. I'm okay with that. I still can make my clients happy and when I print my prints I am still amazed that came from me. So don't give up. Just keep movin sister. I have more money woes than I can handle but if you don't have dreams you have nothing.

Raquel - Amiga! todo los cambios en la vida generan desconcierto y temor a lo desconocido, pero eso es solo al comienzo ya veras que cuando te compres tu camara y practiques mas (lo que creo que pasara muy pronto) te sentiras mas segura y confiada, lo mas importante es que tienes con que... sobre todo determinación!! Te quiero mucho , muchos exitos para ti!

anna kim - Thank you for your honesty. I've had similar feelings and experiences too. I looked at your portfolio and you have some AMAZING work! I can't wait to meet you next month at the j* workshop. Love, prayers and alohas, anna

-brittany- - Lara! You are going to be a fabulous photography and business photographer. Your realness is going to inspire people and allow them to know they are not alone (me included)! I felt this EXACT way when I began my the journey with my biz 2 years ago and definitely continue to feel this way sometimes. Thank you for being open and honest! I am excited about this group of women who are meeting up next month and hope that we can bond together and continually encourage each other as our businesses grow! hugs!

D - you have what it takes to succeed. you are a strong woman has the courage to follow your dreams and passions. believe in yourself. have patience with yourself. and most of all, never doubt you can achieve what you set out to! don't give up! and when you feel like you want to, lean on those who care about you and those who wont let you!

Sandra A - I totally understand how you feel amiga. But I must admit, I have always admired you, not just for the professional, the mother and the friend that you are, but I admire for the woman that you are. You inspire people with your infectious laugh, your beauty and your caring heart. That Confucius saying you posted said it best... we just have to keep moving forward, even if its in tiny little steps. Hang in there...

cori derksen - ok, you are precious...i love your honesty. :) so glad that i will get to meet you at jasmine's workshop. don't give up. i hope that this workshop truly inspires you and spurs you on toward great things with photography. I have definitely had ups and downs with photography (and still do), most of it based on my own confidence and perceptions of the world and my abilities. look forward to meeting you. :)

Diandra - Don't give up! Seriously. And don't worry that you cant buy a new camera... use what you have! I cant tell you how many times I have thought I needed the latest whatever and I've learned to work with what I have. I'm so glad I'll be meeting you soon! :)

Andreina - Lara, you must understand this. We r all fighting an enemy. Don't let him win! This is a battle that you decided to fight with God and He put that in your heart! You will win it with Him on your side! You must know that He is always good. ALWAYS. Declare that in your heart, and fight against the urge of giving up, fight like the best warrior; with passion, purpose and love. We have all been there! I visit that place often, but I always stand up and scream back at those negative thoughts to get out of my life. You are a winner and must act like it! Love u my friend! You r in my prayers!

Jennifer Brotchie - Hi Lara! I'm so glad we are going to meet this month and that we get this chance to get to know each other... I have the same insecurities in my head all the time!! You are not alone. God has a plan and you have to ride the wave, BUT you must have a plan as well, and He will guide you. But Confucius is right also, it doesn't matter how long as long as you get there. But we woman are so impatient and we want to get there now!! :) Work hard, don't give up, keep going, be inspired, do things for other people and it will come (that's what I keep telling myself too!) We are in this together!!!!!

Sara Bell - Don't give up, I always feel the way you feel, just trying to dig out of this financial and emotional mess I'm in, let alone conceptualize and actually follow my dream - I don't even know what that dream is. I don't let myself dream those dreams, but you have the courage to dream it and actually do it, so believe it long enough and it will be!!

Monica Karroum - Larita...this is a short comment for you: DON'T GIVE UP!!! You are very Talented!! and by the way..You are My Hero !! haha So Please do not disappoint me! ;) Kissessss MK

John Leocadio - Hi, Lara. No, I don't think you're the only person that's felt that way. Even Jasmine Star blogs often about her experience just before she became the worldwide phenomenon she is today. Mike Colon's FB status once read (and I'm paraphrasing) "Remember all that you've gone through to get to where you are before you consider giving it all up." I think it's awesome that you shared how you feel, because I think far too often, people are afraid to say how they truly feel because they are scared what people may think or how they may react. But truthfully, a lot of people feel the same way from time to time. Myself included. I know that it will seem far too easy to throw quotes at you, but two come to mind that have kind of helped me through my so-far short journey in photography. The first is, "It's always darkest before the dawn." The second is, "Things won't always be easy, but nothing worth having ever is." And they're true. You should never give up because things in your life aren't going your way. Everyone is going to have those days, but you'll appreciate those trying times more when things turn around. And they ALWAYS will. Hang in there, ok? Because even when you feel like you're at your wits end, you'll always have someone who will listen.